Trying New Things

You know what they say…If you wanna make God laugh tell him your plans.  🙂

Hey, y’all.  🙂  It’s been a while…again.  🙁

So yeah.  Last time we met I was all excited and happy about being back on keto and all that.  Then literally the next day I started throwing up blood again and having terrible stomach pain. If I ate anything that wasn’t soft or bland the stomach would act up in violent ways.

I got real depressed.  Like real real depressed.  🙁

My body just does not want to let go of the lupus flare it’s in. My most recent sed rate was 137.  My pain / inflammation is worse than it’s ever been and because of the stomach issues plus my blood thinner I’m very limited in what I can take for inflammation and pain. My dr is back on my insurance and she’s sending me to a new GI dr in Sept so hopefully this one will be better than the last…honestly it wouldn’t take much.

Anyway I had to finally stop trying to force it. Stop wishing and hoping and pining away for keto/lchf. I loved keto / lchf. It did something to my brain and made me happy. But I can’t keep doing this to myself.


I hadn’t written about this yet or even shared it on Insta because I was waiting to see if it was something I liked and would want to keep doing. So far I like it.

I lost almost 80 pounds on keto/lchf and at my first WW weigh in I’d gained almost 30 back. I absolutely REFUSE to gain anymore. I worked way too hard for that loss and I’m not gonna let this dumb body of mine take me back.  🙁

I had to try something so I joined WW…which I call the Oprah plan because I adore Oprah and am always quoting her to the fam/friends. 🙂

At first I was just messing around with it and doing it online only and just bouncing up and down the same 2 pounds.

Then they sent me an email offering me a discount if I added meetings to my plan. I thought why not? And told myself I’d be happy if it did nothing else but keep me from gaining back more than I’d already gained.

My second weigh in and I got my first charm.  I was super duper happy about that charm.  Rumor has it WW is getting rid of charms.  Hear this right now WW / Oprah I’m gonna be real damn mad about that. I want all the charms. Peeps in my meeting were real mad too and were saying if it happens they’re gonna buy ’em used online.  But I don’t want used charms. I want my own.  O Dubbs, don’t let me down.  😉

There’s only one meeting that works with my location / schedule and I don’t really enjoy parts of it but I like the group a lot. The current plan is called Freestyle and it’s interesting but not something I could do for months or years or forever. Some of my meeting friends gave me tips to help make it more livable though and so far so good.
I’m signed up for 6 months so I’m gonna give it a good try.

Anyway that’s what been going on here.   This page will still probably only be updated from time to time because I’m just not feeling well at all right now but I do plan to get more active on Insta again so follow along there if you’re interested.   🙂



It’s Been Way Too Long

So hey, y’all.  🙂

I can’t believe it’s been 6 months since I’ve even opened up this page.  I’ve been active on insta but just not here.

All that stuff with the ear and antibiotics and all that crap just really messed me up.  🙁

I’ve been back to lchf / keto since May 2nd.  It’s been…interesting.  A little different from the first time around.

I got almost all of the awesome keto benefits right away but I didn’t get the weightloss like I did when I originally started in 2016.  The first 2 days I lost 4 pounds and then a few days later gained it right back and then just stuck there.  It’s crazy because I came from eating basically nothing but sugar and carbs.  I should have had a huge woosh.  Something is clearly going on with my body.  I was keeping my carbs below 25…and most of the time much lower.  Something’s up.

I posted this pic on instagram May 14 and wrote about it there but it’s like almost all of the weight gain went right to my upper body.  I can’t stand it.



This has had me so emotionally messed up for weeks.  My first degree is is Early Childhood and I’ve always been a huge child advocate.  I can’t believe I live in a country that would lock littles in cages…and that a large number of people think that’s perfectly fine.  🙁   It’s so disgusting that I’ve almost run out of tears (and words).

If I make it to Heaven one day I hope so very much that there is a viewing area where we get to watch these horrible horrible pieces of shit…and those who voted them into power…burning in hell. I hope that so so very much.  I’ll plop myself down with a bottle or 10 of wine and enjoy the show.  😉  Thoroughly.

Participate if you can. If you can’t and want to do something to help…donate.


Alrighty that’s all for today.  🙂

Y’all have a great week and I’ll see you soon.  🙂

Happy New Year’s Eve

Hey, y’all.


The blog is back up and running. They got it transferred on the 18th but it’s taken until now for them to get it fixed where I could access my admin section to actually blog.

Hope y’all had a fantastic Christmas and holiday season.  🙂

(all baked goods made with gfjules flour except for the kolaches which were real for the rest of the fam)

All the usuals. Peppermint cookies. Cherry white chocolate chip cookies.  Prune kolaches. Tamales, enchilada casserole, cheese rice and beans.

Do y’all’s Moms give y’all retro toys from you childhood for Christmas? Mama B does. I love love loved Holly Hobbie when I was little.  🙂


Now for the best news…y’all know I’ve been going thru so much hell the last 3 months with all the antibiotics but starting Tuesday…

KETO is back and I can’t wait.  🙂

You can’t even imagine how rough the last 3 months have been on me mentally and physically.  I hope that I will never have to go off of it again. 🙂

Hello, old friend. It’s been way too long. 😉

Ok that’s all for today.  Y’all stay warm and have a safe New Year’s Eve / Happy New Year’s Day (eat your black eyed peas) and I’ll see you soon. 🙂





Christmas Time In…Texas?

Hey, y’all. 🙂

Hope you’re safe and warm in your corner of the world.

Things are still a little rough here.

This month I’m on Cipro for the mastoid bone infection.

Last month was straight up hell.

The meds are just destroying my digestive system.

In better news…

Tree’s been up for weeks. If you’ve followed me for a while you know I’ve been searching for my forever tree for the last few years. This is it. 🙂 I love it so much.

It snowed in South Texas last night. So pretty…but this summer girl says thanks for visiting…you can return to wherever you came from now. 😉

Because of the stomach issues there’s just no way for me to do keto or even low carb right now. Combined with the steroid shots I was up 20 pounds the last time we met. Now I’m only up between 8 and 10 depending on the scale (or I guess time of day). I don’t weigh at home but at all these different Dr. appointments I’m holding right there between 8 and 10.

I’m ok with that for now. Considering in my past when I’d lost as much weight as I’ve lost over the last 15 months…the first taste of sugar and I went off the deep end gaining it all back plus some. This time I went up some and then got it going right back down in the right direction.

Before / current comparison. (Yes…wearing Santa leggings as pants…because they are pants.) 😉 Same dressing room. I shop very little at Penny’s but I like to run in there every now and then to take a current pic in the same dressing room as the before. It really helps me when I see how much less of the door is covered by my body. 🙂

Ok That’s all for today. Hopefully I’m going to start doing some Christmas baking next week. I’ll share here or on insta whenever I get started with that. Until then y’all stay safe and warm and I’ll see you soon. 🙂


scratch & grain cheesecake brownies

Hey, y’all.

I’ve been having a really rough time with all the health stuff. 🙁

Last time we met I told y’all about the bone infection and the 6 months of antibiotics I’ll be taking. They are brutal, y’all. I’m taking 3500mg a day. My stomach and digestive system in general is a complete mess. I can’t keep anything really solid down at all.

Guided injection into my sacroiliac joint. My doctors have been trying to get me seen for several issues while I still have insurance. So in the middle of all of this bone stuff I’ve also been seeing a joint and pain specialist for some ongoing joint issues. They promised me that two guided steroid injections wouldn’t cause the same weight gain issues as ingested steroids.

Yeah, no. 🙁

In the 6 days between injection one and injection two I gained TWENTY pounds. From my face to just below my abdomen I puffed up like a water balloon. Of course a good chunk of that is fluid (that’s already coming off pretty easily) but still it’s so frustrating given how hard I’d been working for the last year.

And then the hits just keep coming. Tuesday of this week I went in for the first follow-up for the bone infection and he gave me some additional bad news. During the diagnosis phase for figuring out the bone stuff they ran so many tests and I had multiple scans and an MRI. Well all of the tests results were finally back in and one of scans found a lesion on my frontal cortex. The ENT thinks it’s probably lupus related (and a former rheumatologist did think I probably had some mild CNS lupus once before).  They’re in the process of getting me back in to see the neurologist and I’m just hopeful that they will be able to see me before the end of the year when I’ll lose my insurance.

I’m so scared, y’all. 🙁


If you follow me on insta …and I’m sorry for the lack of posting there too…you know the brightest spot in the last couple months was birthday week trip to my most favorite place. 🙂

Take me back…please. 🙂

Now…the chocolate.

Have y’all seen this? scratch & grain gluten free baking kit.

All ingredients color coded for easy follow instructions.

Y’all this is the best boxed treat I’ve had since having to go gluten-free in 2013. The only place I’ve ever seen them is Target. I don’t know what kind of voodoo they’ve got going on with the flour in the brownie mix but it is perfect. Perfect fudgy texture.

Also…if you go to Target looking for it be careful. scratch & grain has other mixes and not all of them are gluten free.

Now…that brings me to this. Keto and lchf are completely out the window for the foreseeable future. I can’t do it. I tried going back on keto this week and I thought I was going to die. And I’m not being overly dramatic here. What these antibiotics are doing to my stomach…I just can’t fight thru it without some starch to buffer them. If you can do it. Great for you. You’re much stronger than me. But guess what? There’s no prize for that. 😉

My goal now is to get the real steroid gain off and then just maintain my losses from keto. If I can do that I’ll consider it a win.

In the meantime I will enjoy indulging in some gluten-free treats and I’ll share when they’re worthy…like these brownies. 🙂

Today would have been my pappy’s birthday. It was super bittersweet this year. He loved him some ‘stros baseball. I’ve written about this before but for the last 2 years of his life I saw him every single day. Each day when there was a day game we’d sit and watch it. Today was the parade. Papa B and I both cried for him a little more than usual. I also had some crack coke.  An Icee…he always used to call it my crack coke. 🙂

Allrighty…that’s all for today. Y’all have a good weekend and I’ll see you soon-ish. 🙂